Berean Crossroads

O SUPREME MOVING CAUSE,
May I always be subordinate to thee,
            be dependent upon thee,
            be found in the path where thou dost
               walk,
                  and where thy Spirit moves,
            take heed of estrangement from thee,
                  of becoming insensible to thy love.
Thou dost not move men like stones,
   but dost endue them with life,
   not to enable them to move without thee,
   but in submission to thee, the first mover.
O Lord, I am astonished at the difference
   between my receivings and my deservings,
   between the state i am now in and my past
      gracelessness,
   between the heaven I am bound for and the hell
      I merit.
Who made me to differ, but thee?
   for I was no more ready to receive Christ than
      were others;
I could not have begun to love thee hadst thou
not first loved me,
   or been willing unless thou hadst first made me
   so.
O that such a crown should fit the head of such a 
sinner!
   such high advancement be for an unfruitful
      person!
   such joys for so vile a rebel!
Infinite wisdom cast the design of salvation
   into the mould of purchase and freedom;
Let wrath deserved be written on the door of hell,
But the free gift of grace on the gate of heaven.
I know that my sufferings are the result of my sinning,
   but in heaven both shall cease;
Grant me to attain this haven and be done with sailing,
   and may the gales of thy mercy blow me safely
   into harbour.
Let they love draw me nearer to thyself,
      wean me from sin, mortify me to this world,
      and make me ready for my departure hence.
Secure me by thy grace as I sail across this stormy
sea.